Worth & L♥ve

Don't you ever wonder if you're worth someones time and effort?...to be honest I sometimes think if I'm worth something for people to talk to me. If I have a feature that people admire...
Sometimes I feel as though their putting up with me because they have to. I even forgot our 5months  anniversary day...
What do you think? Well......tbh I got some new perspectives on relationships after the YFC conference.

I listened to 임우현 목사 (Lim Woo Hyun pastor's) seminar on relationships...it was over rated in a way but then it was logical in a Christians perspective way!

So a long story short about his seminar. We shouldn't even be dating at this age. It sounds silly..but we as teenagers don't understand love and even if we do we're not capabale of understanding each other to the full content. And eventually we'll break up. Multiple breakups will make us get weaker...even though it seems like you'll get stronger because you've endured past multiple relationships. But no! I think it gets weaker cause when you're in a relationship in this generation, teenagers tend to go 'all in' as in giving all they have to their bf/gf, then might even move in with each other because its cheaper to rent with 2 people than 1. You save money; we of the 21st century forget what true love is. We give our all and in the end, you don't marry them. We have a thing to move on to fast and see better people(well guys mainly). E.g. you finished year 11. Now you're moving up to year 12, people change and you see a new person that is more attracting than your gf... You breakup and again there's the same cycle. Put your all into the relationship and then..end up hurt. Because you won't marry them...and there's many differences between people in personality...but what we should be aware of is to Accept others and understand each other.
Tbh...I find no reason why we should be dating now... If its to be social...then a relationship could make you social with that one person but then you might be locked out from others because they're so secure...anyways what I'm saying is I don't think its necessary to date someone. Being their friend is exactly the same thing without the intense touchy touchy things involved. And as a Christian I believe not to do such things before marriage... But if you do find someone that could be your true love....ask them to wait a few years so you can get ready in studies and life. And if they're faithful for years and wait for you, and they're...pretty attractive then yes! Take that chance but...tbh that's not very likely... :p
Anyways...let's do our best until we grow older and we are more stable and capable of such serious relationships. God will answer our prayers and show us his will and what he wants.. :)

So..to conclude.
I'd rather be your friend! Friends can be of the opposite gender and can be as friendly as a relationship!!:) Well, I'm definetly trying now to be single and wait for Gods calling.

p.s: even broke up with gf..today!!

So let God do his will through us and let us pray for him to send a blessed woman/man into our lives soon... :) 

Reference: Holy Bible.

Proverbs, chapter 3
V5) trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
V6) in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.

*God has a better understanding on love because he is love! (1John 4:8, Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love) so we should...trust in him for our love lives. ♥

Btw. No photos recently...blogging through my phone!!!:) will upload soon! ♥

YFC conference 2012

Hi all!:)
Well: its been a busy holiday! How about you guys?
The second week of the holidays, started off with a blessed day at Grace and Truth church (은혜와 진리교회). The sermon was about the ways of sacrifice to God. Its all in korean so yeah... :)

Monday was chilled...tried getting my license but was scared I guess...to fail >\\< so...was just at home, chores and just gaming..

To be honest, on Tuesday the YFC (Youth for Christ) conference was to begin...and I wasn't really confident to go because my friends wanted to hangout with me during the 4days I was away at the conference. But I was somehow convinced that I needed to go and learn more Worship and to build my faith... Well..if you're wondering who needs faith and God?
I do. God is life and is the reason why we live. To be able to glorify and lift his name high through different acts of worship!
Anyways...I also had the pressure to learn more because of my parents...and my worship band. I was recently annointed to be the worship leader of the student sessions. (Form 1-7 sermons, at our.church the children and students and adults are in different parts of the church and listen to different sermons that are based on our age etc.)
Well I was annointed that position to be he worship leader since the end of last year...and... It feels as though I haven't taken up the position that God had offered me. Maybe cause I was scared what God bad planned...and ashamed? I don't know really :/ But what matters is now!:) so...I've been at the vision conference for the past 3days and todays the final day!

I'm on my way right now to Hanouri Church (한우리 교회) in Glenfield!
Lastnight was amazing...I felt the presence of the Holy Spirit within me as we prayed for each other last night...my friend James Lee was crying and shouting for the Lord...I too was also shouting unto God...it was a night to remember...the pastor was very humorous and that brought the focus of us teenagers to listen to the word of God:)

1thing I learnt and want to share to you fellow bloggers is that Praise is to help others find God. Praise as in the position I was annointed...to be the leader of worship and to lead others to find and seek God. And that you need to truly focus to God, then you'll get the physicial features of God and the Holy spirit flowing in you! The tears that will run freely :)

Well enough for today. Arrived at the church and yup!:) have a lovely day and ill blog more about the preachings that God not only sent for me but for me to tell you guys:)

God loves you and Bless you who take in God as your saviour!:)


My nametag thingy:)
-Grace & Truth Church c:

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easter weekend:)

Easter Weekend 2012!

hey bloggers >D and stalkers...
how's your holiday been?!
well..mines been good thanks for asking! lol...sound like a loner > <
well, last night it was my friends, Aaron, Michaela and Shayal's birthday party! was hectic... :)
photos are on fb now so...whoever has me on fb can see it :D hehe, well the party was...just your average teenage party ^^
well, dont really have much to write and cant really be bothered... :/ spent the last few hours on dota!
and also had an easter barbeque at my house with some church friends! good food and good gaming today!
Also, I wanan share something with you guys todayy! it's a verse that will forever be in your life even if you dont think its relevant...i think it is :) because its the legit stuff behind Easter;
(i got to this verse when practicing - Scott Brenner - God so loved the World (하나님께서 세상을 사랑하사 and its been stuck in my head all day ! very nice and yes...it's a white person singing in korean :))
*link if you wanna watch! :)
Yeah...anyways blogging is hard work >< dont wanna make a fool of yourself online :p allgoods tho.. ^^
mm.. well at church we had a special day cause it was Easter ^^ extra special worship songs and a great sermon! about the death and birth of Jesus ;
well...have a good evening and I shall try to blog more often :)
goodnight my lovelys!

-"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life." - John 3:16, NKJV

term1 complete. easter begins♥

HOLIDAYS! NOW!!♥ yayy

...Well I had an extremly busy few days between my previous post!
P.S> Sorry for not blogging...not that anyone reads it or anything ><
Well...yesterday...I had;
CLASSICS: to finish...sigh tell you about it later
STATISTICS: To study...sigh don't wanna talk about these depressing subjects :(
PHYSICS: another hard subject needing my precious time to be spent on...

And pretty much all the other subjects are done hehe!

Mm so...from the beginning :)
At school on Wednesday I had my first part of stats internal :D pretty easy!! (Achieve part hehe)

Then... I had my physics to do :< this test literally killed most people. It was so damn hard that I only did like half of the entire paper >\\<;; -sigh-
I heard Mr. KUMAR. the best teacher at physics! But...is funny looking :D like a oomba-loompa not being so mean but he looks like one ^__^ hehe.
Well..he made the test and all and he made it so hard -_- even the smartest girl; Farihah couldn't do it all...and she's a genius Bangladeshian! Mm...just hope I can get atleast an achieved for this test aye! Meh...

Well after that; I had FULL school assembly...fo' real. Gym was packed >< so many ppplzz :< mm..well this assembly was the awards based assembly presenting sports and academic awards to students...well you kno that girl I just mentioned from Bangladeshh! Well she got an award and all...for japanese -_- like wut....? Asians can do jap and maybe white people....but this 1brown girl got all excellences in the jap assessments o: coolstory aye..
well..speaking of jap. My jap friend, Keima, got an award for jap lul...he took jap and he's jap himself...its like International student came to learn own language in another country...silly. well yeah, he got called up but he's like...not at school anymore (a long story) so it was awkard...(for me at least) cause his name got called and yeah...

Eh...this is getting off track and bit emotional ...k sorry
Back 2 duh point.

-overall point in classsics...
I didn't sleep did my assignment and finisjed in time but then the printer had no color ink so like..fail as..I go to other printers in the other buildings but theyre all locked -_- all the damn teachers gapped it home or holiday aye...yeah so I got like 2pages in color then 4pages in black &white...meh so yeah...katie was there with me and she was like duh eff...such a rush and yeah...was a hectic afternoon tryin to get my assignment handed in by 4:30pm...
But I done it now!!;D all done hehe♥feel so relieveeed!

Then it got exciting....went botanyy....:D met my gf. Hang out. Enuf details yeah?:B hahehoho!

Got home, eat...thinkin of sleepin but I was craving to write a blog entryyy hehe ♥love my fans...1follower atm hahah!
Thankyou my inspiration and #1 follower! ^__^


Also....got easter egg from my bunny suited gf :D and from my gooooodddfriend :D I got them eggs too but...I left it in my locker -_- sigh...and then yeah gta wait 2weeks to get it t.t way after Easter ...


NOWW SPEAKING OF EASTER.
Easter is about the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ our saviour...but why is it related to an egg and bunny?... I alwayd wonder why is it an egg? Jesus is human and was born through the womb and was reborn through baptism? (세례 in korean :p) but yeah...why a bunny? Confused.........o.o you know can comment or something...tell me somehow! Really curious but can't be bothered finding out thru google >< mm.

Well...my role model/leader sent me a text today about Jesus' crucification and stuffs. Thought I wanted to share the wisdom on easter! ♥
Sorry for the long onee;

Ref. THE HOLY BIBLE - John Cho (my leader :))
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He died on the cross today. Read John 19 today..

Pilate tried to release Jesus
Jesus answered him, "You would have no authority over me at all unless it had been given you from above. Therefore he who delivered me over to you has the greater sin." (11)

Jesus was hung on the cross
"There they crucified him, and with him two others, one on either side, and Jesus between them. Pilate also wrote an inscription and put it on the cross. It read, "Jesus of Nazareth, the King of the Jews." (18)

Jesus died on the cross
"After this, Jesus, knowing that all was now finished, said (to fulfill the Scripture), "I thirst." A jar full of sour wine stood there, so they put a sponge full of the sour wine on a hyssop branch and held it to his mouth. When Jesus had received the sour wine, he said, "It is finished," and he bowed his head and gave up his spirit." (19)

Then pilate let them take Jesus down Jesus's body as it was a Passover
"So they took the body of Jesus and bound it in linen cloths with the spices, as is the burial custom of the Jews." (28-30) (John 19:11, 18, 19, 28-30, 40 ESV)

Watching Passion of Christ gives a little more understanding if that helps =) Jesus died on the cross for our sin today Amen

P.S. have a lovely start to the holiday by celebrating Easter in your own way! For me; to acknowledge and learn more about what Jesus has done for us sinners ♥

Happy day! :)

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day 1; 

hmm..today's April 3rd 2012...

interesting :) bloggggggg thinggy ma bobby 

Well, I got inspired today. I was reading my friends blog; iawakeatsunrise and thought wow. This friend I have is amazing :) she's one of the people that I actually look up to right now expressing her feelings and all and just being herself...mm anyways; thought I liked to share that ^^ 

blog...well today I stayed home...resting and eating and doing my assignment and blogging :D

hehe this seems fun and seems like a good way to express myself...cause my girlfriend says that I don't express my feelings and she doesn't know what the heck is going on in my mind all the time. To actually write it down on somewhere and look back someday...thinking wow that was me...

well back to my day! I had plenty of fluids and food :) lots of rest but ... I'm stressing out cause of the internals and assessments that are all due by this term :( I got like a to do list for school -_-

-english, creative writing on a memory - 3credits

-maths, statistics internal write up - 4credits ... missed out on it today but luckily got myself a doctors note :D have it for 2 days though...... gotta study > <

-biology, had a longg internal on osmosis and stuff...didnt finish yet...got like another 15min of a period to do it cause we got short periods on Monday and other classes got extra time :( - 4credits

-classics, omg the worst.......so much to do in so little time freakin' writing a textbook chapter thingy on a battle that happened over 2000 years ago -.- ...and it's due on Thursday but I'm only like not even half way through it > < - 4credits -rage- so hard..

anyways....that's what I got to do tonight and by the end of the week...been procrastinating for the past hour and half on facebook and writing this blog entry...should blog later when I'm free of all these assessments :)

but...for now I gotta add something;

Why are guys such assholes sometimes...even though I don't know what truly happened...my friend's bestfriends are so against that guy now and what he did...like wtf ... I stayed up all night (till like 3am... maybe that's why I'm sick today..) trying to help my poor friend out by just talking to her but it seems like it's so complicated to comprehend anything...long story short; the guy called her a slut on his skype personal message thingy, and she got all upset and I was supposed to ask him why he did that, but got side tracked and didnt get to the main point of asking him.....but yeah he was angry as, swearing and everything that she's fucked up and is a slut and everything...she was so upset and crying over the phone for hours...and he was like cbf, fuck her, got better things to do... -sigh- pissed off aye .... >.> 

well...can't be bothered now to do anything :( but............this blogging thingy's pretty cool to do :)

it seems...legit. 

speaking of legit... shall leave you with this legit photo of my friend's rage face >;D

ciao.